Confessional Self-Portraits V-VIII  
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  V. Hermit

VI. Mollusk

VII. Armadillo

VIII. Jeweled Bull

 
           
 
Each day she makes herself
more a hermit, loving time alone.

But not an anchorite: no prayers,
only poems. And as the place her heart
had been empties itself so
do the books and bones;

hollow, bare. Still there is life:;
insects, lizards and ghostly birds
which circle closer and closer

and finally alight
singing for Anubis.
She entered the shell
thinking it a safe place.

But the dark and the roaring
drive her out.

See her fingers scrabbling
for a hold on land,

the ebb sucking her out
and a wave ready to break:

There is no safe place.
No winners cross this line.

The passion of the moment
anesthetizes us: we ignore
the ripping scales, puncturing spines.

As with saints ecstasy and penance
are one. Only later — part of
healing — do we wonder

what victory might have been.
Protector, provider:
strong and passionate
he rejoices in being bountiful.

His jeweled hide, scrotum of black pearl,
pizzle a fire-coral corno, Neapolitan,
inspire him to shower me with gifts —

metaphors, manifestations of his pleasure
which runneth over. He enriches me
as he is richly endowed.

In his magnificence he is munificent.